Art and I wish I could take Physics HL

I never managed to muster up any more fucks to give interest about my own art anymore and now the painting I was so proud of and excited about working on is left unfinished... like most other projects I have started in the past.

by Nozmo

Thinking about it is about as embarrassing as going back to visit my old SmackJeeves account (which I finally deleted thank goodness) and seeing how alive and immature my personality was and what my aesthetic interests at the time were. I was in middle school, and nothing about myself back then makes me proud in any way, though I guess I should be happy that for whatever reason I'm much wiser about what to say, what to draw and what to watch on the internet now as a result. Life is funny.

When I did go back to Smackjeeves, and it's been five years, I revisited some old friends' accounts, and then friends of theirs, and then friends of theirs, and in the end I discovered some really extraordinary artists. Every artist gets into sequential art it seems, and only a handful can keep up with continuing their stories, for instance, Nozmo, who I really admire for her comics Alternate and Todd & Petunia.

So, It's really disappointing to see great stories discontinue, or even bad stories but wonderful pictures. Out of the many beautiful yet discontinued comics I read today on SmackJeeves, a comic by Jillian Iscaro really stuck out to me. Her comic was based on Michio Kaku's Hyperspace so the art alone was wonderful and I wanted to find more of her work, and as someone who doesn't really like to talk I simply added her to my watchlist on DeviantART and followed her Tumblr, which I encourage everyone to do too, and here's why:

I love the variety in her work from style to color but what I find so interesting is her perspective, and I guess that's what happens when an artist takes an interest in physics.
Finding and admiring artists I find on the internet does give me some motivation to draw again, but from the time I've taken today to read and blog, and given that I have one week left before the school year begins and I need to dedicate all of this time to START and finish my summer assignments, I'm just going to continue sitting here in this pit of non-creativity and rot while I breath in allllll my jealousy and angst.

My first painting in 2012 among other things

Wow I haven't blogged in a while, but more importantly, it's July and I haven't painted THIS YEAR until earlier today. Last year I discovered how thrilling and liberating painting could be. Yes, much less cathartic than pencil drawing, but nonetheless painting, as I established in the summer of last year, is my...quasi passion. I don't know really. There's music, and anyone who's listened to me mention anything regarding music knows that's my passion. I just can't put music and art on the same scale.

And art came first, for the record.

So here I am on a lazy morning. I change my Facebook timeline header/photo/whatever it's called to an old design of Zanarkand from FFX and a friend tells me I should start drawing again, because I haven't really been doing that this year either. I don't usually get motivated that easily, but I guess it's because lately I've also been telling myself to stop anime-binging and start drawing and painting again that having someone to simply tell me to draw again was a sufficient enough push.

I've noticed I like coral reefs and marine life. And noodle soups. So um.

Hey Aaron if you're reading this, this is for you. Kind of. Eh. Thanks. I suppose when this is done I'll also finally have something new to post onto Flickr and deviantART, because Lord knows I have nothing else to photograph anymore. My face? Hah. My profile pictures on Facebook lately have been anime characters and currently it's:

Hahn Bin from his Sarasate Carmen Fantasy performance. It was not impressive. It was actually pretty disastrous considering he graduated from Julliard and was Itzhak Perlman's protege! <bitterness>Child prodigy my ass. Get those false harmonics down with speed and then I'll put you on the some scale with Sarah Chang.</bitterness>
I guess he just had a lot of shit from people like me just before the performance. ~Not sorry~

It's late so I'll go. I've got a new violin student first thing tomorrow morning!