I've only got the guts to post one segment of the recital, teehee, but at least it's Carmen!
I really enjoy performing, but I never understood how different solo performing is compared to ensemble performing. I have played Vivaldi's Winter concerto and it still felt like ensemble performing! At least if I stink, I have tons of other people to stink with.
I felt like I was lost in the beginning of the recital and felt extremely out of place. I had a mini panic-attack much like this:
In between the piano and the violin parts of the recital, though, my orchestra director pulled me out for a moment and got me to calm down by praying. (She is a black baptist so her form of prayer was really interesting.) She brought me back in the zone though so I was ready for the next three pieces and gave it my all.
So, I wasn't entirely happy with the 40 minute performance but at least I always have that night to look back to in order to motivate myself to go forward in terms of performing. I do want to perform more. And I do want to pursue a degree in violin performance. But not now.
I'm not ready for the real world just yet.